Wednesday, January 24, 2007

"Nothing else makes such a desperate sound..."

I had a one on one with the principal today. We have to sit and talk about our year and what we'd like for the following year. Somehow we got on the topic of Americorps (i think because i was trying to explain how Americorps and La Salle are fucking me over), and I started talking about my experiences with CY. Suddenly I heard myself, rambling away with no real point. I felt 15 again. That awkward talking where you know that the person isn't really interested but you keep going. Cringe-worthy moment.

Ooooh good song just came on my playlist.

I was going to write more, but I think I am just going to post the soundtrack to life right now and let other people's words speak for me.

"I still love what I know/I love to ride alone and sing a song and listen to the radio/You can ride alone and if you change your mind, well, that's just fine/But there is somethin' that you got to know/Just don't ask me for the for the truth if you choose to lie honey/And don't try to open my door with your skeleton key/Some folks seem to think I only got one problem/I can't find nobody as crazy as me." (Crazy as Me - Alison Krauss)

"Baby said he couldn't stay, wouldn't put his lips to mine, and a fail to kiss is a fail to cope. I said, 'Honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified, come on put a little love here in my void.' He said, 'It's all in your head,' and I said, 'So's everything.' But he didn't get it." (Paper Bag - Fiona Apple)

"Cynical town can be tough on an angel, clips her wings baby 1, 2, 3..." (See Her Smile - Tick Tick Boom)

Monday, January 01, 2007

"And if the world decides to catch up with me, it's a little victory..."

Welcome to 2007. Out with the old in with the new... Or maybe a little bit of stability and status quo for the new year.

2006 was a year of transition for me. It was a year that was in flux from almost the moment it started.
January was packing up my little South Philly apartment and preparing to move to West Philly. I quit my lights of liberty job, and prepared to teach SAT Prep to high schoolers.
February, moving day, adapting to life in West Philly, planning CY projects.
March - April saw me working on two of the largest project I'd ever undertaken: The library rennaissance and the college fair. It also had me frantically searching for jobs.
May - The library project finally ended, and I got my first job. My little brother graduated from college.
June- Was on TRL (looking bored apparently). Two years at CY ended. Ended my first real functional relationship.
July- Terrible month of working at a day care, and getting ready to move again. Had a couple decadent weekends with Danielle in there though where we met a man with sandwiches tatooed on his arms and took fishtown by storm.
August- Moved again this time deeper into West Philly, started working at Mariana Bracetti.
September- December- First year teacher life. Constantly in flux.
December - Got Latina eyed for the Jewish Girl (Elena and i went shopping and i learned that there are clothes that actually look good on me!). Got a PA State ID. Got a philadelphia cell phone number (after a jackass stole my old phone at a party).

With a year of changes behind me, I would like my life to regain some sense of calm. I want to spend this year figuring things out. Getting my act together. I want to be organized. I want the messiness of my life to sort itself out. These aren't new year's resolutions per se. They are mearly my hopes for the upcoming year, along with the hope that we (friends, family, myself) will all be healthy and happy.

Happy new year.